That's it I'm calling it... 2010 was the year of the breakup. Sure there have been some major get togethers, a handful of new relationships, engagements, and marriages (congrats to all). But this year more long term couples I knew (myself included), you know the ones that you would never think to break up, the ones headed on THAT path, broke up unexpectedly. Not too mention some of my favorite celeb couples - Zac Efron and Vanessa Hudgens (Zac call me), Kim Kardashian and Reggie Bush, David Arquette and Courtney Cox, Finn Hudson and Rachel Berry (ok they are purely fictional but I rooted all season I for them to get together only to have them break up earlier this month), they all called it quits. What was it about 2010? Just an unlucky year for love. Maybe all this happened so that 2011 will be a year of finding yourself again, a year of new beginnings, maybe finding love again.

So far singledom has been fun, reconnecting with family and friends, getting back to me. There are times where I think why me? But I believe everything happens for a reason. And Mike just wasn't my lobster. The real scary thing is starting all over again. I had my life planned with him in mind, now I have a blank, clean slate. What to do with it, I just don't know at the moment.

I also keep having this reoccuring dream, well not the whole dream, just this one part seems to be repeating itself. I'm in UpCountry Maui and there is a fork in the road, I'm on Old Haleakala Hwy. to be exact, right where it meets King Kekaulike High School. If I go left I hit Haleakala Hwy. and head up to Haleakala. If I go right I hit Kula Hwy. and head for the lavender farm. Both places I love to visit. It's ridiculous how vivid it is, I can actually see the road. I never pick which way I want to go though, I just stand there looking at both. In the beginning I thought it was because I haven't been to Maui in awhile and prior to breaking up I kept asking Mike to take me to Haleakala, so I was just doing some wishful dreaming. But since this scene has been in different dreams I decided to look it up. Here's what I got:

-Fork in the road- I have a big decision to make.

-Mountains- well they didn't have Haleakala specifically so I looked up mountains. It signifies major obstacles and challenges that I have to overcome, higher realm of consciousness, knowledge, and spiritual truth.

-Lavender- indicates mysticism and spiritual cleansing.

I'm not sure what to make of all this. I guess I'll have to keep sleeping on it.

AHA I've found THEM! Kit Kat Cookie from Japan, only the best candy EVER. Last year when my family went to Japan my sister and I were OBSESSED with Kit Kat, we still are. Went to Nijiya market today and low and behold they were on the shelf (the second to the bottom shelf I'd like to add, FYI Nijiya market Japanese Kit Kat deserve to be at eye level). Last May my friend Courtney went back to Japan and I gave her 2000¥ to bring me back Kit Kat Cookie. These bad boys are SO good. I've been missing Japan lately. I miss everything the subways, food, candy, shopping, walking everywhere. I get terribly jealous when I hear someone is going to Japan. I can't wait 'til me and Mike go, he's going to love it because he loves Japanese food as much as I do. I want to make Japan an every other year trip.

Today I woke up incredibly TIRED. I thought to myself it's going to be one of THOSE days. But in actuality it was pretty darn good. I worked with Theresa, always a delight. Parker came by to change our lights and he gave Theresa and I each a plumeria. How sweet is he! Guys take notes from Parker on how to treat a girl! Nice little gestures can really turn my day around. Like the Honolulu Coffee Co. guy knowing my order. I also made my sales goal... cha-ching BONUS!

I also got my package from Urban Outfitters in! They had a big sale... of the six things I got:

3 of 6 LOVED

2 of 6 Liked

1 of 6 Hideous

Online shopping is such a gamble, sometimes I figure it's not worth it to buy clothes unless its a t-shirt, sweater/hoodie, or something that I owned before (like if I ordered more Vans authentics). Urban Outfitters please just open a store here already geez. Save us all the trouble. There is a nice space vacant where Banana Republic used to be on Kalakaua Ave. Please, I'm begging you.

My boots say hi. Went to Shokudo with my mom and dad for Girl's Day. After we went to Shirokiya and I bought mixed berry Pocky and some Japanese magazine's from Book Off. It was a very Japanesey day.

At church today they talked about fasting. Wayne is fasting T.V. and Internet for three days. He suggested I try to fast too, so starting Tuesday I will be fasting junk food and snacking. I'm a real sucker for cookies, chips, and other snacks, so this will be quite hard. I don't eat a lot of junk food, but I'll eat like one or two throughout the day. Maybe instead of three days, I'll just see how long I can last. Though I don't think I can last over a week, hello it's Girl Scout cookie season. DAMN you THIN MINTS!

I've been missing Mike a whole lot lately. It sucks. He's coming for a quick visit next week, two days and I have to work at Billabong on both days. Oh well it will be nice just to have him here.

Also I've been loving Train's new song Soul Sister or whatever it is called. Enjoy:

There are genuine nice people in the world. At Honolulu Coffee Co. the Moana Surfrider location, there is this nice asian guy that reminds me of my friend Landon (lookswise) and Chivas (personality wise, but not as passive). I go there a lot, not for coffee but for ice tea. Today I went in and he was like "Large Ice Tea?" But I tricked him this time with a Hawaiian Sunrise. I ordered a small and he gave me a large. What a nice guy, I totally want to set him up with one of my friends because any guy THAT nice (to give a complete stranger a bigger drink, to remember what I order without ever knowing my name, and to sometimes give me discount) is in my book friend date worthy. Any takers girls who read my blog? It's refreshing to find people out of the blue that nice, thank's guy at Honolulu Coffee Co.

Actually I've been having a nice people kind of day so far... guy at Hank's Haute Dog was nice and friendly, a customer who ate a Hank's chili dog gave him extra tip because he said the chili was delicious, and at work tonight no rude callers and everyone called in their basketball games ON TIME. I quote the great Ice Cube "...today was a good day."

p.s. i stop writing titles because i kept getting title writer's block.

forever.

"The boat was actually Plan C, the church was Plan B, and Plan A was marrying her a long, long time ago. Pretty much the day I met her" -Jim

Jim and Pam finally got married, it was like watching my friends get married.

Other favorite quotes....

"Four years ago I was just a guy who had a crush on a girl who had a boyfriend. and I had to do the hardest thing I've ever had to do and wait...for a really long time that's all I really had, was these little moments with a girl I had as a friend... even then I knew I was waiting for my wife." -Jim

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